This blog is about my spiritual journey and my earthly journey. My earthly journey is well over half done. I am 55 years old.
I live alone in a little 300 year old house in south-eastern Norway which I share with a dog and 2 cats. Is it home? If home is the center of the compass from which arrows point out in all directions I don't know. Although I love living in the country on a working dairy farm, I just don't feel at home in this country where 8 months of the year are just too dark and cold. I also have a house in Greece, on the island of Crete - I am hoping that one day I will find my home there.
My calling is nursing. I work in Norway's largest and busiest ER. My job is fun, demanding, challenging, interesting and exciting. And yet I feel that it is taking me over, swallowing me whole. There is - there must be something more.
My tribe consists of my mother, two brothers and my sister. Of my 4 children, all in their 20's and their partners. Of my colleagues at work. I don't have any close friends. Just people I know and like.
I have tried marriage twice. It didn't work out. I seem to be incapable of creating a relationship that is good for me: in which I can stretch my wings without guilt, in which I do not give more than I have to give and in which I am loved and accepted, and can find refuge from the storms of life.
I am struggling with money. I need to be able to work less - to have more time for reflection, meditation, yoga, for writing, creating a comfortable home. And yet I am wracked with guilt at the thought of being able to spend a lot of time alone and still experiencing financial abundance.
My spiritual journey was based on anthroposophy and christianity for many years. I still consider myself a christian and an anthroposophist. In the past 2 years however I have been exploring other spiritual paths: Belinda Davidsson's School of the Modern Mystic. Eckhart Tolle's mindfulness teachings, the Course in Miracles, Neale Donald Walsch's "Conversations with God", and Pierre Pradervand's "The gentle art of blessing" to name a few.
I live alone in a little 300 year old house in south-eastern Norway which I share with a dog and 2 cats. Is it home? If home is the center of the compass from which arrows point out in all directions I don't know. Although I love living in the country on a working dairy farm, I just don't feel at home in this country where 8 months of the year are just too dark and cold. I also have a house in Greece, on the island of Crete - I am hoping that one day I will find my home there.
My calling is nursing. I work in Norway's largest and busiest ER. My job is fun, demanding, challenging, interesting and exciting. And yet I feel that it is taking me over, swallowing me whole. There is - there must be something more.
My tribe consists of my mother, two brothers and my sister. Of my 4 children, all in their 20's and their partners. Of my colleagues at work. I don't have any close friends. Just people I know and like.
I have tried marriage twice. It didn't work out. I seem to be incapable of creating a relationship that is good for me: in which I can stretch my wings without guilt, in which I do not give more than I have to give and in which I am loved and accepted, and can find refuge from the storms of life.
I am struggling with money. I need to be able to work less - to have more time for reflection, meditation, yoga, for writing, creating a comfortable home. And yet I am wracked with guilt at the thought of being able to spend a lot of time alone and still experiencing financial abundance.
My spiritual journey was based on anthroposophy and christianity for many years. I still consider myself a christian and an anthroposophist. In the past 2 years however I have been exploring other spiritual paths: Belinda Davidsson's School of the Modern Mystic. Eckhart Tolle's mindfulness teachings, the Course in Miracles, Neale Donald Walsch's "Conversations with God", and Pierre Pradervand's "The gentle art of blessing" to name a few.
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